Thursday, May 19, 2011

Dreaming in color

It happens quite often, yet I don't know what it means
So often it's in color, vivid and meaningless dreams
Maybe if I understood the pain I felt
Perhaps if I could make sense of the hand I've been dealt

But this pain can be so unbelievably immense
And my thoughts run amok, frequently vile and intense
What should be a day of joy, it began so well
Within no time at all and for no reason, shot to hell

Mother asked this morning, "At home, do you have any close friends?"
Do these kinds of painful questions ever come to an end?
All I have needed is time to air out my mind
Instead, it's a barrel of inquiries so crass and unkind

Some days, I feel I should just change my name
But what would that do for me, when the end result stays the same?
At one time, the change would have made sense
But that time is now a fact of past tense

So if these technicolor dreams have something to say
I wish they would speak, or just go the hell away
My mind has had enough for this one cruel day
On that note, I'll clean the house of my short-lived stay

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Saying hello

To all of my blog readers:

I apologize for seeming as if I have abandoned the blog. I have not.

There have been lots of things going on in my life, over the past month. That's quite an understatement, actually, but let's go with it anyway.

I am currently not at home, and have not been for the past month.

The situations which have taken me away from home have taken up most of my time and have not given me enough thought space to post anything, and I gave my own self a rule that as long as I can help it, I will not put out a cheap and ill-conceived blog post. I can only hope that I have lived up to that rule, but I will allow all of you to decide if that is the case or not.

I will be returning home, very soon. Believe me, there will be plenty of posts to come, and a great deal of it will be based on both old and new information, as well as situations which also involve old and new info.

Thank you so very much for taking any kind of interest in me, for your understanding during my time of absence, and hopefully I will repay all of you by being able to pick up where I left off, with giving what I promised I would give.

See you soon. Peace and love to all from Paul!